Welp. Plane tickets are purchased. Vaccinations have been administered. Support letters are sent. And now all I have left to do is "get rid of all of my expectations" as Alison and Andrew keep telling me. Not really going well. I think about Kenya probably 20 times a day. More often than not, I analyze and mentally prepare rather than praying and releasing control. If you know me, you know that this is something I have never really embraced...
Andrew and I had our first sibling tiff this week. I came at him demanding knowledge. How much is in our account? What do I need to be doing? You never responded to my e-mail. Grrr. (PS - One bowl of chili and 5 minutes of immature behavior later we were back to normal)
Andrew is what I like to call a Mary Magdalene. I am undoubtedly a Martha (Luke 10:38-42). Both are necessary in this world. However, I feel like the Marys have somewhat of an advantage on the getting-to-know-your-lord-and-savior front. This realization is gradually mellowing me. Alison Gamble is taking good care of us. I have done my part. Now I need to allow God to prepare my heart. Which takes focus off of what I can "do" and places it back on what Christ has already done.
There are still many items left on the trip to Kenya to-do list. And I am, in writing, declaring that I will not worry over these insignificant details. Feel free to hold me to that.
-Erin Gamble
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